As the year went on, things changed and activities stopped. Ice broomball finished, I stopped going to the aqua aerobics class, and I ended up missing two hockey seasons. I was still working out with Stacy, but we turned to running mid-year. I decided in December 2012 that I was going to run my very first half marathon in September 2013. I was not a runner. I was never a runner. I BECAME a runner in 2013. Not only did I run the half marathon in September, but I ran a SECOND half marathon in October!! While all the running was good for me, and crossing the finish lines were amazing, somehow I wound up gaining a lot of the weight I worked so hard at losing the year before. I really don’t understand how it happened, as I didn’t change the way I was eating, yet I gained an average of 17 pounds since this time last year. That’s CRAZY … and unacceptable! But, there’s no use in crying over it now. Crying won’t shed the pounds (if it did, I’d be a stick figure), but actions will. I asked Stacy if we could go back to meeting 3 times a week (we changed it to twice a week sometime in September or October, which clearly didn’t work for me) starting in January, and she said yes. Weight Watchers has a new program to help jumpstart weight loss … I start on the new plan January 5th. January 5th is a new start … it’s MY new start at a happy, healthy, fun and energized life. While I can’t fix everything, and I can’t make all the bad things go away, and make the good people come back, I will cherish what I DO have and I will work with the body I have (as messed up and broken as it is, I will make it work) to get back to where I want to be.
The holidays are over, the stress of the holidays is over, and the sadness of the holidays is over. It’s time to move on, in a new direction. I’m following the happy road this year. January will be a new beginning. It will be the beginning of a new life. Life is too short, and we all take it for granted, but at any time on any day, it can be taken away from us, so I am going to live my life to the fullest and make it the best I can; for me.