I have come to realize that obstacles aren't just hurdles we venture to reach but can't seem to get over or missions we plan to complete but fail to find the finish line. They interfere in our daily life without manners or questions asked. I have came to a realization that obstacles are just to test your integrity, your strength, your ability to give up or your capability of pushing through.
ACL surgery was like being asked to jump over Mt. Everest both feet together, without using my hands while saying the alphabet backwards. It was a point in my life that I thought getting better wasn't an option and going back to my normal life was a word I try to keep away from my mouth, impossible. Since then I am realizing that hasn't been my only obstacle and past experiences should have proved my strength and drive but it didn't because I didn't take these hurdles into consideration. Once the obstacle has been conquered we all end up trying to put blinders on and never look back but all of those bumps in the road, have made us who we are.
I fear getting hurt again but I know that I have gotten through it and that fear will not prevent me from living. I fear sleep because my dreams feel too real. I fear getting my heart torn into pieces but that won't keep me from loving. I fear that myself isn't good enough but I won't stop being who I am because I have kind of gotten good at it. Okay starting to rear away from my point.
Here to sum it up, fears of the future or of what's to come shouldn't hold us back from living. We have all came across obstacles, some worst than others...we are all still here because we jumped over the hurdle. The past that we try to forget reappears time and time again to give us another chance at doing it right. We have to understand what is really important in life and go after it. Hurdles aren't meant to stop the runner, they're meant to challenge the runners ability. It is time I challenge my ability to smile when it hurts and cry when I can't hold it in anymore and become the person that I once was, fearless. This world is our playground and there are millions of people to choose who you want to sit on the swings with. Maybe they haven't come around yet but they will and when they come, they'll want you at your very best. So I will spend this time getting to know myself, perfecting my imperfections or just being proud of them and understanding that some people are meant to be experience as others are meant to be lifetime treasures.
"Good things fall apart, so better things can come together"
Stay positive.
ACL surgery was like being asked to jump over Mt. Everest both feet together, without using my hands while saying the alphabet backwards. It was a point in my life that I thought getting better wasn't an option and going back to my normal life was a word I try to keep away from my mouth, impossible. Since then I am realizing that hasn't been my only obstacle and past experiences should have proved my strength and drive but it didn't because I didn't take these hurdles into consideration. Once the obstacle has been conquered we all end up trying to put blinders on and never look back but all of those bumps in the road, have made us who we are.
I fear getting hurt again but I know that I have gotten through it and that fear will not prevent me from living. I fear sleep because my dreams feel too real. I fear getting my heart torn into pieces but that won't keep me from loving. I fear that myself isn't good enough but I won't stop being who I am because I have kind of gotten good at it. Okay starting to rear away from my point.
Here to sum it up, fears of the future or of what's to come shouldn't hold us back from living. We have all came across obstacles, some worst than others...we are all still here because we jumped over the hurdle. The past that we try to forget reappears time and time again to give us another chance at doing it right. We have to understand what is really important in life and go after it. Hurdles aren't meant to stop the runner, they're meant to challenge the runners ability. It is time I challenge my ability to smile when it hurts and cry when I can't hold it in anymore and become the person that I once was, fearless. This world is our playground and there are millions of people to choose who you want to sit on the swings with. Maybe they haven't come around yet but they will and when they come, they'll want you at your very best. So I will spend this time getting to know myself, perfecting my imperfections or just being proud of them and understanding that some people are meant to be experience as others are meant to be lifetime treasures.
"Good things fall apart, so better things can come together"
Stay positive.